untitled and incomplete

it's late at night and i'm all alone
just got off the phone with you
and though you seem so far away
your love is something i always knew

what will you say to me tonight, darling?
what will you surprise me with tonight?

Your smile lights up my every day
i love the way you kiss me and say
"keep on loving me the way you do"
and i'll keep on loving you for you

Press me down

press me down
into the depths that lies beyond
my living space
push me in
the suffocating realm that
brings a crushing taste

if you let me out i won't leave you
if you let me out i won't stay

pull me in
your contradictions make me sick
to make me out so stupid
hold me tight
too tight that i cannot breathe
can't you see you're killing me

screaming and shouting you fall to the floor
clinging to that which i was but no more
your very fingers pull deep in my skin
my soul cries for liberty from deep within

when will you let me be to believe in me
just let me go for a change and
pull me out instead of pushing me in

if you want to protect me from living,
then release me and let me die again.

reach me
by shane pereira

i'm standing here all alone in a crowd
i want to hide so i'm crying out loud
to you my Lord

you're so far away but you're in my heart
put me on my feet and lift me up
to you my God

why have you forgotten me and left me without?
where is your saving love and presence now?

reach me
i want to feel your love again
reach me, O jesus
reach me now

the rain is falling gently upon my face
fill me Lord with your amazing grace
and make me love

are you within my heart but without a face?
are you here to hide and test my faith?

reach me
i can almost feel your love again
reach me, O jesus
reach me now

took me a while but now i'm here to stay.

Together Apart

crowned with forbidden words and song
i'm caught between two dreams
in me the heart that longs for you to know
and the resolve of a man who says no

seems i'm on this path
that winds to the beginning of nowhere
i turn to walk away
but i'm walking backwards now

There is a glass between us
i see you, our hands together
but beyond the cold upon my hands
i can't feel you anymore

i step back and wish for you
to find a way past my wall
so we wait and look on
my reflection on you in me

Numbness creeps over me now
there is no more to see
but still we gaze eternally
for a day that will not come.

a new love

just lying here beside you tonight
brings a sense of right
that here is where i belong
and when you're far away
a thought is a blessing
a moment, a quiet song
that fills me from deep inside

before you came the music
had just faded all away
not a song came to my lips
not a tune would make my day
and now i wait so endlessly
just to hear you say

many times i wished and wanted
to hold your hand
but it slipped through my fingers
and my heart skipped a beat
why, i don't understand
why i felt for you
why i never saw you
so beautiful that way before

and though i have so many reasons
i should just walk away
i never want to leave this feeling
this love that's just for me

now that you're here the music
just plays all day
to a song that's on my lips
to a tune that i could sway
and now i wait so endlessly
just to hear you say
that you love me too

more to you

its so hard to tell you
that i don't care
when i do
and its so tough to hug you
when i don't mean more
than i do

what ever happened to simple things
being simple
and why does everything i do mean
something more to you

Why For You

Music: Anna Yoong
Lyrics: Shane Pereira


I made a stupid mistake today
Falling for you so hard this way
I've given my sanity for an angel
Within my grasp so far away

refrain one:
Drowning in this feeling why
I just don't want to let you go
I just want you to notice
I just wanted let you know.
I just want you to notice
I just wanted let you know

I can't breathe without you
why don't i see that I can't see
My self is dimming my soul for you
Pleading for love to set me free

refrain two:
You just want to break me down.
That smile so cold yet so warm, so set.
I'm getting so sick of this game
But my heart It's not done with me yet.

bridge:
why can't you look past the lies and see me
for who i am
you turn your face away and then you say...

final refrain:
You just want to break me down.
That smile so cold yet so warm, so set.
I'm getting so sick of this game
But my heart It's not done with me yet.

I'm getting so sick of this game
But my heart it's not done with me yet

scarred

You called me up tonight
to tell me you still love me
just when I thought I’d let you go
out of my heart, out of my soul

the emptiness inside tonight
you fill up with a hollow tune
bittersweet in taste – a chord
so unfamiliar and familiar to me

there is a pain here deep inside
and I smile and cry at its thorns
twisted rose buried in my love
no more to shine, no more to show
can’t you just love me and leave me now?

The moonlight is radiant still
Sparkles upon the tear on my cheek
The thought of you still makes me weep
I wipe you away but still you stay.

in my head

do i really have to talk about this
you keep prying secrets from my head
creeping, seeking, digging
all this is driving me insane

you have no right to ask me this
you left that behind a long time ago
i am my own man, stronger now
so turn away and leave me alone

fighting with the voices in my head
i cannot think i cannot sleep
asking, peeping, leeching
my soul not my mind is mine to keep

i clench my fists and grip the air
nothing is as it seems or voices as i hear
what is speaking what is true
nothing i can do, and i just cannot care
anymore.

Painting Forgiveness

the sides are blue and worn
framed with splashes of red and green
my conscience is wrecked and torn
i am not the same as i seem

please cut out my bleeding heart
it bleeds because i have hurt you
please tear out my aching soul
that thought of noone but myself

selfishly i wanted her so much
to crawl beneath and thru your feet
He told me it was wrong, all wrong
but still i was too blind to see it

i'll show you a picture of gold and grey
if you would look at my painting and see
how much i truly did not want
to think only of me

I am on my knees in prayer again
i want the frame to be just all right
i beg you to forgive me, my friend
my words, i pray, are not in vain tonight

Copyright ©2003 Shane Nicolas Pereira

someone went away

you lived like a king
your heart burning bright
candles in the darkness
from my own blindness

in the park by that swing
the hours just passed us by.
many times we ran around
that simple joy that we'd found

you grabbed me by the hand
those fun times we had
things we could never replace
that they could never take away

now everything has changed
that empty swing just remains
in a quiet space, soft, and lonely
that's where my heart used to be

i loved everything about you
i hated you sometimes
but god knows i'll miss you
when you're gone
and now you're gone

Until I believe

music: anna yoong
lyrics: shane pereira

Looking back I don’t see the reason
No reason for you to do what you did for me
Why you took that dive, why you took that pain

No how no why no way that I can see

Stupid. That’s what you did that night
Gave away your choice, your wealth, your crown for me
Trading your life for a silver penny
Nothing that I would have done myself

You say you wanted it so badly
You say it just had to be done
You say it stung and hurt so much
And yet you die for the One

You say you wanted it so badly
You say it just had to be done
You say it stung and hurt so much
And yet you die for the One

You climbed that hill and stood up high
You raised your hands and your heart
Your love poured out for me, only me

It tears your mind, your soul apart

I still don’t know why you did it
Stupid sometimes it still seems
But I am gonna love you for it
Until I see the reason, until I believe

I still don’t know why you did it
Stupid sometimes it still seems
But I am gonna love you for it
Until I see the reason, until I believe

Blinded

I open my eyes but I'm too blinded
to see you cloud my mind
I hear nothing you say
but what i want to know

Well I don't care
what you do to me
Just leave me alone.
I want you to stay
I want to see you
to keep me blinded

It's all so contradictory
funny how you're so serious
I turn away only to see you again
You're all over me
All over me

Copyright ©2003 Shane Nicolas Pereira

Crush

I've seen you from so far
Drinking from the water fountain
The way you turn, the way your lips shine
I can't stop wondering who you are

I wonder what you think of me
I'm concerned with every little detail
I want you to see me for who I am
But for you there's nothing I wouldn't be

You disagree with me
You seem to love doing that
Every laughter a thousand needles
Prick me with bittersweet melody

Am I the only who feels this way
You close your eyes before I can start
Why won't you let me come close
Let me see what's in your heart

Break all your barriers, lay it down
I want to be the one to save you
Let me hold your hand, to be the one
And we can go wherever you want to


Copyright ©2003 Shane Nicolas Pereira

blanket

the walls are closing in now
pouring rain and flowing mud
sinking in my own sweat
Ii'm drowning in my own blood

this place is so stifling
hear it closing in on me
something hidden, something seen
it splits my screams beyond my plea

lift me up
break these walls inside
lift me up
free my heart this time
set me free
set me whole again

wake up now to moonless nights
see that which you never saw
look for salvation beyond
that which you have known before

comfort, calm and so close
these things you do not provide
but trap me now beneath this wave
that sinks me down with in the tide

set me free
lift me up
make me whole again

Goodbye Lullaby


How I wish I could wipe away that frown
And put a smile on your face
When can my touch mean so much to you
When yours means so much to me

Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing it all wrong
Maybe it just gets too much for me
And then you hold my hand and smile
And all that is washed away

Ride me on the winds beyond
Swiftly into the sea
Darlin' you mean so much to me
Step on the stones on the
Beautiful shores
And wake me before you will leave

Copyright ©2003 Shane Nicolas Pereira